Don't get me wrong. I would not change my decision to become a true Christian for anything in the world. The more I get to know my creator and savior, the more in awe and in love I am. At the same time I am learning that nothing is about me. The wonderful plan He has for me- it isn't about me, it's about something so much bigger. When He blesses me, He does so simply because He loves me. I'm also learning that God loves me so much that He uses what He needs to teach me.
So this story that I've been in has had many plot twists and tragic events. Sometimes, it has taken a while to get to the next chapter in my tale. Parts of my story have been very dark, and the only way I could move is with the light that my God gives. He has lead me literally step by step. So why would a God that loves me so much put me through all of this? Because it makes me stronger and it teaches me how to persevere, how to keep going when it gets tough. He allows me to go through all of these things so that I can help others who go through all of these things. Interestingly, He has put people on my path who were able to help me because they went through all of these things.
The wonderful thing I have found is that God is always there with me, always. He is as faithful as they come. When I ask Him to pull me closer I can feel His love touch me physically. When I need to do something He asks and I don't feel strong enough, I can ask Him to help me do it and He will. What an amazing God!
So while it is easy to get really down when one's story is hard, a change of perspective can make all the difference. Counting one's blessings each day can bring a grateful attitude. Looking at people who have it worse instead of thinking about one's own losses can change anger to gratitude pretty quickly. When I think about how God created everything around me and count it all as blessings, I find it pretty amazing. When I reflect on the supreme sacrifice He made of His own son, to take the sin of the world on himself to save all of us, it astounds me. I feel so blessed that I have eternity in front of me where there will never be another tear or pain. When I think this way, even on bad days, I can still put one foot in front of the other and share the stories God has given me to tell. What about you?
The valley where I fell
You were there all along
That's the story I'll tell
You brought the pieces together
Made me this storyteller
Now I know it is well, it is well
That's the story I will tell
From the song "Storyteller" by Morgan Harper Nichols. To see the song video click here